❤love has no reason❤

Y Thursday, December 31, 2009.

it been so long, tat i have post.
recently many things happen, till i duno how to carry on with life.
ut been 2 month and 27 day since i last post.
btw, today is yeow ching bdae.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YEOW CHING!
sometime i feel lyk telling everything, writing down all the things
but it just a waste of time.
i may be a small little hair on ur arm, but u are my blood tat flow in my body.
i wish u know about it, but i choose to silent.
i only can be the invisible support helping u secretly and the rest
it seem lyk a fool of wad i doing but i volunteered it
i canot take it anymore, it goin to burst
left only 2 choice. wad shld i do?
to the left or to the right? other than tis two ways lead me to no ans
anw, my blog is dead, tat y i lyk it, cux no one will bother to see and read
i feeling lyk making myself drunk now and nvr wake up,
tml is New Year, 2010, welcome to Earth

i love you

5:32 PM

Y Sunday, October 4, 2009.

hey people, long time no post already =)
was kinda busy all these days.
currently working at SEAB.
all these days have been going out with my brother, including YQ.
been tired also. doesn't have enough sleep also.
been thinking many things these few weeks.
these 2 months indeed is a good months for me as i keep meeting up with brother they all.
we share and talk about our experiences, build up our brother-ship =)
once again, gim and me still friend =) i treasure all friendship, including you =)
i may be wrong at time, unreasonable, but u all brother, understand me the best still.
thanks for all the scolding u give me, thanks for the care! i appreciate it =)
my heart is not good, have a hole on it, seriously, you guys are the best!
out of sudden, it remind how i mix around with u all after O's. u all are there when i'm ups and downs. really touched. many times i feel like giving, giving up everything. why it happens to me?!
i know some of u might say why i'm so weird. but i'm just stress. dun care abt me. seriously, i want to save money already. i'm broke =(
i'm not okay guys, even i look fine. my family is in a mess. i'm worried, worried for many things. who can i talk to? i start to think for my future, do i have a future that i want? i am glad that everyone is staying fine currently, thank god for that. brothers', i don't want you all to be unhappy, we are brother, brother for life! i feel lyk a useless guy, canot do thing well everything. sometimes i just wondering, why all things is happening on me? why?!
i treaure my family, i treaure my friends. both my parents are not in good condition. i'm breaking soon, real soon. i need help!!
nevermind, just leave me alone, i already used to it =(
people, we had only one life, live to ur fullest. don't regret for the thing that u do. some time, what meant to be ur, it definitely be ur, if not urs, no matter how hard u try, it still gone to waste.
i noe u are not in mood theses few day, cheer up k? i understand. really, there is still me =) i wil be there for u always. seeing the person u love living happily is enough even thou the 2 of you never be together. i just want to see u happy. i don't hope more, just this. i really love you =)
i have many dreams, but, i know it is impossible.
i promise not to cried anymore, but times and times, i failed.
maybe it is my life =(
take care people ~

i love you

4:04 AM

Y Wednesday, September 2, 2009.

long time nvr post le
now having hols and working now oso
hahahas..
recently quite stress and moodless..
been thinking of many things
trying to be flexible nowadays

it been a week. canot able to see u
but tml gonna meet u, hope i able to see u
tis 2 wk is damn so sway.
went to malaysia pub to drink
damn lot of ppl, damn lot of gals
get to know some malaysian gal, cool rite?

nothing to update also, got to go.
need to slp, tml need to work =)
night peepo's

i love you

11:04 PM

Y Monday, August 24, 2009.

recently keep going out so nvr really update my blog

hmph, tis few days keep going out wif wee they all, go bball, eat and etc
luckily still have these fren around =)
recently happen a lot of things, still trying to cool down and think
last fri went polyclinic to see doc and was asked to go for check uo
my heart hav a murmur =(
my medical appointment on 22nd oct =)
hais, saw her at the hair shop, thinking back, is quite along time ago
memories flash back, and aunty ask me a question, i could not ans.
mayb i shld really cool down everything and think slowly

yesterday went out to clementi., was wif some fren, fcuking sway can
kana caught spiting, $150 fine!!!!
HMPH!!! hais...got to go wega liao
blog later =)

i love you

3:44 PM

Y Saturday, August 22, 2009.

sorry, too long nvr blog le.

can i have the chance? hmm*thinking*
recently damn tired and busy
finally finish my IHP attachment.
next tuesday got EAS exam and after jiu HOLIDAY lo!!

anything just call or msg wor =)

i love you

5:22 PM

Y Tuesday, August 4, 2009.

mOOnn speakiinqq & seng hOw speakiinqq.

BLEAHS!

MOON SPEAKIING!

HELLO :D

a BIIG BIIG SMIILE HERE.

iie'm senghOw th'e nuer "MOON MOON HERE"

helppiinqq hym tuhh pOst, bO biian arhhs hhe tOo lazyy liiaO :D

Oppss :x

shhhh!`

BAO BEII SAE ;; DUN SNATCHH MUAII POCKY!! :x

anw, seng how damn lOngg diin blog,bcOshh hhe iishh bz-iinqq @ skOol dOiin wrk..

seng hOw speakiinqq ;;

BUT MOON TYPING;;

last few wk,keep miittiinqq upp wiib terry & irene.

keep eatiinqq supper wiib them, iie qOiin bcum fat liiaO :x

sumhw sumthngs happen,

deciided tuhh giib upp On tt ,bcOshh iie thiinkk wil b too diiffcult.

last twO wk iishh bz-iinqq wiib liiOn dance & siintua

gort tuhh teachh a group ob ppls frm th'e basic..

habb been 3wks plus diin play bball.

last 1wk,iie kana 1wk MC..

get 39.8 degree ferr fever,gort cough & flu.

denn $60 tuhh cc a doctor, && iie gort 7 med :D

bcoshh ob tt iie neber qo ferr muaii presentatiion,altho iie neber qo

iie stil happiie.!!

really berii fed-up wiib tt "PERSON"!

seriously tt person niidd tuhhh wake upp,

but NVM!

after 2wk & iit iishh ALL OVER!

ferr th'e previous ppt iie habb been doiin all the sildes ..

but NVM!

get tuhh noe a NEW FREN iin IHP rm, cor "kai lun"

has been miixiing ardd wiib hym tiis few daes..

& july 22 iishh th'e "guan mo hui", tian yun long shi xue yuan has juz established tt dae

we dotted 1 dragon & 8 liions.

& th'e sintua dua li zi start on 23 july :D

was quiit bz s iie niid tuhh qo dwn thrr help ..

recently get tuhh noe quiit alot ob ppls!

iincludiing july & micky :)

she giib miie her num & askk miie tuhh msg her..

we chatedd ferr a few daes, & shhe askkedd miie ferr stdd..

iit was sho sudden !

iish lyk "OMG"!!

SHOCKED!

on sundae muaii skool help feii jiiang tuhh chu si.

denn shhe came dwn & miit miie :]

&& ob coshh moon qo fetch her..

muz thankks tuhh muaii nuer,LOL.

after awhiile we r "OVER"

sudden cum & sudden go.

& tt dae iie lyk pang sehh m00n & eileen.

sorry sorryy ! :D

after tt went bckk tuhh skool cOshh MC over .

& iie niid tuhh qo bckk tuhh skool aqaiin ,

tt tym when iie cc doctor shhe sae muaii hart gort one small hole.

denn niidd tuhh qo checkk upp.

iib really gort one hole, denn iie cn dun niid do excerise iin army.

hope nth happen tuhh miie :D

& iie noe a vietnam gurl ,

when tokiing tuhh her iie onlii cn speak engliishh.

bcoshh shhe dun really understandd chiinese,

denn shhe always lykk tuhh AD & AH~~!

but when tokiing tuhh her iie always feel lykk laughiinqq :x

bcoshh the way shhe tok berr funnii,makke miie laughh untill berii jiialat,

muaii nuer oso :]

tt dae miit upp wiib her & her siista.

shhe quiite small siize,when miit upp wiib her iie feel lykk laughiinqq oso !!

last fridae, iie gort diinner @ skool.

iit A&A dae (appreciation & award)

iie receive half colour award ferr liion dance!

'damn happiie cn !! :D

but too badd kenneth diin turn upp.

hhe iishh the maiin charactor leii!!

hw cn hhe dun qo eh~~

but bo biian hhe @ army cnnt bk out :]

T.T LARHHS!

but iie diid enjoy muaiiself on tt dae,

was suppose tuhh miit upp wiib ruth & irene,but iin the endd neber.

denn sat niight went m'sia wiib YQ, her siista & her siista fren..

theyy driiviing & reachedd muaii hse abt 10.05pm

denn iie went dwn we straiight tuhh custom .

reachh thrr ardd 10.30pm.

but thrr siibeii jam!!

iishh lykk OMG!

& fiinally reachh JB ardd 11.15pm.

wdd the !!!

went straiight tuhh eat seafood yummy yummy!!`

niice dao siiao cn !

iimagine we ate crayfish , stingray,kangkong,dua tou & kambang soup.

& each ob us driink a super BIIG glass ob sugar cane , barley & lou han guo..

& we spent $48 ferr th'e food & driink..

whiich mean 1person $12 niia

DAMN CHEAP RIIGHT!!

muz qo muz qo!!

denn went over tuhh buy fruits .

long tym neber buy liiao

but the auntiie stil neber 4get us!

cc hw famous we're cn !!`

tt dae iie bought 8 kg ob fruiits.

(4.5kg ob mango stem,2kg long gan & 1.5kg ob banana)

eat already iie went toilet ferr abt the whole dae!

funnii riight !

hw pro m iie hahas!

& sundae when tuhh chu si, reachhedd hm damn late & iie'm damn tiireedd uhs!

2dae morniinq neber qo skool.

iie wakke upp alreaddy BUT all muaii frens nerber qo sho iie dun1 qo :D

keke!

okiies quiite late liiao,niid tuhh qo lerx

ahhbo tmrr cnnt go skool liiao!

BYE PPLS !!

&& b4 iie log out hiis blog.

iie wanna sae.

handd paiin leii :x

LOLd jkjk larhhs!!

enjoy!

i love you

12:15 AM

Y Wednesday, July 15, 2009.

fuck the world and fuck the life.
screw life man..seriously.
life is getting old and same goes to me.
it been long since i last post. sad to say, nth to blog
people out there, don't comment on my blog.
don't be a useless person that says behind of someone or something.
don't hide somewhere else. don't be coward.
wanna say anything, stand in front of me and say
all those bitches and bastards out there, get this clear.
want say but no balls? get the facts right.
see what i type, bitches and bastard.
i never pinpoint anyone here, so don't put words in my mouth.
the world(earth) turn 360 degree but people turn only 180 degree.
mean what?
means that people just don't know how to grow up and move on with the life and the world.

for sure, my mood will be damn bad and damn worse, prepare the worst if you want find me trouble for now, you never know what might happen to you.

grow up kid, i don't treat these people as adult. sitting down on the coffee shop in the middle of the night and wanting to find trouble. lame shit. luckily you are not asking me, instead asking my friend. if you will to ask me, u will be in hospital now for sure.

don't ever use people like a dog or what, we are all human, get the fact in your head and be mature, seriously, people are getting lamer, useless, or perhaps, hopeless.

think before you say and do, and also, think for yourself before saying other.
night to those people(s). hope u get your peaceful sleep.

i love you

12:34 AM

Y Friday, June 19, 2009.

after such a long time, i finally post again!! lol!

it been 17 days since i last post, wahaha. long period wor..

many things happen, many choices need to make and decide. duno why, days have passes, but still no light on my path yet. tis few wk was searching this light tat would light my path but i canot find. really tired alr, please, take me to a place whr there is no one, a bed for me, to sleep and nvr wake up. feeling stress and tired, but who know, and who cares? hmm., guess no one will even notice tat my blog is goin dead. saddist for me, sob sob. in a devasted state at the moment. i need help! hais.

till today, it been 5 months 11 days. it getting longer and longer, but some how, i forgetten the feeling and lost count of the days. i am trying hard, and very hard to forget u. u came in my life and walk out without a sound. till nw, u have changed a lot but i promised, to forget u. i don't wanna get hurt anymore, i dun wan,. hais. in the process of changing my life, changing everythings. tear is coming down.

recently keep goin lan, for some stupid reason. my com cannot support those game. LOL. just making me bz so tat i wun anyhow think. tinkin back, i'm just a big fool

have no mood to continue post., see ya people.. =)

i love you

10:48 AM

Y Tuesday, June 2, 2009.

sorry peepo's. was busy and seldom online, so didn't post much =)
about last wk, was doing lion dance things and school stuffs.
almost training everyday, was damn tired.
but thank god, my sch project is almost 60% done.
can anyone motivate me to move fast? still thinking.
i got a new interest out of sudden. LAN
was playing LAN almost everyday last week.
last wednesday went to clementi L4D with YQ and his friends.
3hr only $3!! damn cheap, but only at certain hr, haha.
then thurs & fri was out meeting friend, know her quite a period of time but owaes no time to meet.
recently was addicted to a game called CABAL. nice game, i wan chiong game, but sad case,
my laptop is too lag to play =(.
many things happen during this week. indeed is alot. thinking back. i don't know how i able to get pass through all these things. but still, thx people that called and msg, and care for me, really appreciate it, great to have these friend,
one more thing, seriously i'm lacking of SLEEP!!!~ slp for 8 hr for 2 days. damn tired.
sat went basketball, as usual. one by one, my buddy are goin for NS, have to wait for 2 yr to have all brother come out as one. and also, wanna apologise to YQ, sunday was damn tired and nvr come meet u all, although i nvr promise but still, sorry =D
monday was usual, went to talk and slack and reach home at 1am, LOL
today heng ar, wake up at 8.05, faster chiong out and take bus, luckily didn't late, was 9.15 when i thumbprint, hahahas..

i heard some rumour about u, is it true? y must u lie? having troubles? talk to me ok? but somehow, i'm giving excuse myself, even u wanna meet me, out of sudden, i would think for a moment, mayb it fading, confused and troubled mind. i need advices, i need help.

recently keep listen to this song. =) 假如真的再有约会

人清醒难感性迷失方能找到期待爱情
梦中见亦高兴能将心灵希冀尽说明

谁决定人本性或许生命中有埋没姓名
纯真爱难记认人间本来应该是有情

望这不再熟识破落故城何以变了这样宁静
长街失去欢欣笑声留下我孤单的一个生命
疑望这风雪未知那日会停来世你我要是重认
能否找到彼此背影假如全无凭无证

原谅我当天不懂得珍惜只知任性坏事情
唯顾你此刻可于虚空中将心聆听
将来若真的再有个约会会完成
真的会再有这样深情
我以天为证跟你带领
我以天为证请你带领

i love you

10:20 AM

Y Tuesday, May 26, 2009.

it been one week plus since i last post.
sorry, was too busy with my stuffs, got lion dance, school work and friend gathering.
recently just too busy to do any posting,
reach home everyday around 10plus and went school at 7plus.
seriously lacking of sleep. another panel assignment is coming.
need to rush programming and powerpoint again.
if anyone wanna find me, just call my phone, if don't have, ask from me =)
alright people, gonna go do my stuffs already.
will be posting tonight =)

i love you

10:00 AM